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Nov. 2nd, 2009

10:31 PM

So I think I've figured out what is wrong with me. I've been feeling really sad and angry lately, and I think I've finally figured out why. Cause all of my friends freak out when I'm not smiling for like two seconds. I need to be able to be angry, or sad whenever the hell I feel like it without getting the third degree. I think I really just need to cry sometimes, and not necessarily because anything is wrong, but just because I need to cry. I went for a walk today just because I wanted to be ragey and cry, and I knew I couldn't do that in front of people without them making me feel guilty for having feelings. I had a lot of bad crap happen to me, I need to cry sometimes just to cry.
Anyway, I'm kind of glad that I figured that out, cause it's been bugging me a lot lately.
^_^

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Nov. 2nd, 2009

9:06 PM

So for the moment, this is currently my favorite song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Ux6SlOE9Qk

It makes Andy sad, because it's about domestic violence, but it makes me happy because even though it's about DV, it's about a girl who's leaving, and it's in a happy tone, that's kind of dancy. I don't know, I might just be weird because of my own experiences, but I feel like it's kind of good. Kind of makes me happy because I got away and now I'm in a really good place. Also, it's my favorite type of music, punk rock, so that's good too.

Anyway, figured I would share that. ^_^